I have always known that I wanted kids especially going into my 30's. Well, I'm 39 now and currently on Prednisone, Plaquenil and Cellcept to treat my SLE and lupus nephritis. I know that I can't get pregnant on Cellcept since it's a class D drug but my doctor is hopefully going to take me off of it sometime this year since my kidneys have greatly improved and are functioning normally now. I had one miscarriage in 2011 that was considered a chemical pregnancy and ever since then, I have been mourning the loss of it. 

I guess my concerns right now are if I can even get pregnant because of my age and having been on Cellcept and Methothrexate (in the past). Also, am I going to be able to handle a baby with my lupus. But regardless, I still want to have a child. As much as I am always happy to hear others having babies, I can't help but feel a sting wishing that that was me. 

Right now I am doing a lot of wishful thinking and have gone to a fertility specialist to get my body checked out. I don't think I want to go through any type of fertility treatments because I'm afraid of how my lupus is going to react. I guess going there is just my way of knowing if it's even possible for me to get pregnant again. I want to go see the high risk OB I saw after my miscarriage for another pre-pregnancy consult but I find myself continuing to try to talk myself out of it for feeling silly going when I don't know if I can even get pregnant again. 

Am I beating myself up too much or am I being realistic? 

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Big surprise, since the last time I posted, after trying to continue weaning off Prednisone after 11mg, I ended up flaring with fevers. Needless to say, my nephrologist decided to start me over at 20mg again. Sure I was disappointed but ironically happy that my fevers subsided.

After taking to my nephrologist, we decided to continue weaning off again but at a slower pace...1mg every 3 weeks.  With my fingers crossed, it's been going good! I'm currently at 13mg and planning on weaning down to 12mg next week if all goes well. I had a fever last week of 102.3 which is quite high for me. After a couple of doses of extra strength Tylenol, my fever lasted for only a day. Everyday since then, I've been slowly recovering from it. According to my Rheumy, he believes my body was trying to fight an infection and didn't believe it was my lupus. He said this because it only lasted a day.

I really wish my body would let me wean off faster but beggars can't be choosers, right?

Let's just hope all goes well the next time I wean down because I really would like to have the option to have kids in the near future.

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